Reasons I cannot love you

I think of you in empty spaces
When I’m alone and there’s no one in sight
I close my eyes and sigh
Not because I wish your presence
You’re in my mind – and in between the creases of my thoughts
I sigh, as I gently run my fingers across them
For a moment there
It’s just me and all of you
In my head but that’s alright

I said I would never love you
Because love is shallow and makes me weak
How do I deal with your pain

When I wish to cocoon you from the world
How do I protect you
When I want every little thing that annoys you gone
You know, I would suffer for you if I could
But then I try and fail to keep things from hurting you

Love, is a mockery of all I feel for you
For love is feeble and oh so selfish
It makes me want to hold you
Steal those little moments with you
But more importantly
It makes me want to save you
Tell you that it will all be okay one day
Love makes me want you to smile everyday
When I know there will be days you won’t
Days when you will cry and I cannot stop all that hurt
And I, just like everyone else, would have failed you.

So you see I cannot ever love you,
For loving you is the easiest way to lose you.