When you let me go
You should have really let me go
I wish you wouldn’t do that thing you just did
Stopped and glanced at me
After you said something funny to check if it was amusing enough
It was
But what good would it do to my vanity if I let you have the pleasure of making me laugh
Again
After all this time
We are past that now
It has been years since we ventured into that space remember?
Except for that one drunk night
When you almost held my hand
And I fled
And the night out in the balcony
When you asked me what I plan to do with my life now
You were smoking
And I decided to ignore you
I just couldn’t care
Not anymore
I think the closest we ever came
Was the night we stood at the door
Wow you have really changed, you said
And held my waist for a second too long
I almost smiled and came up with something witty that day
To throw you off for once
But I walked away, I always do
Shaking off this feeling
That you probably remember what my waist looked like all those years back
That and the rest of what I was like
Funny, I remember the strangest details
One of our earliest moments
Television, sunlight after a sudden afternoon downpour
There were no words
I was wearing something green (I have never liked green )
You were loving
I felt important
And we just were
I remember what your hair looked like that day
Your warm hands cupping my face
You had just made me laugh and while I did
You watched and held my gaze
There was never a beginning
It was easy that way
You just came and left
So we never had to end
I sealed it up when it was over
Tossed it in my box of ‘things we do not think about anymore’
And as I piled on newer inconveniences
I buried you deeper each year
I still know what you mean when you say things
Knowledge doesn’t fade away with time and people hardly change
It just has been far too long
I couldn’t find you if I tried
So don’t
Don’t look at me for answers
Don’t pause
Don’t wait for me to smile
We do not really know each other as much anymore
We have been strangers for a while.
